A little over six months ago, I decided to start taking photography a bit more seriously. I was tired of the perpetual creative stuckness I found myself in. Always waiting for the right moment to start. Eagerly anticipating the knock at my door to tell me the time is now, you’re ready (you’ll be shocked to discover, it never came!).
I want to make films. That’s always been (and still is) my dream. I’ve made indents here and there in achieving that goal, but the impatient part of me needed something I could make now. To scratch the itch which at this point had engulfed me in a feverish embrace. Photography seemed like the answer. Something which would sharpen my cinematic eye and storytelling skills, get me out of my head and into the world with other people (a welcome move after many years of debilitating mental illness and isolation).
I spent a lot of time building mood boards, researching my favourite photographers and outlining the type of stories I wanted to tell and thinking about the people I wanted to work with.
One thing I knew for certain was that at some point, I simply had to photograph Madi. I met Madi years ago, when I was helping out at a Saturday film club run by a local charity, Clapperboard UK, as a teenager. Her audacious aura is palpable. She is who she is and doesn’t care for anyone’s approval. There’s a quiet angst in her spirit. Something in her eyes that I knew would be magnetic on camera.
My friend Belle sent me a post on Instagram about the open call by Open Eye Gallery. They were looking for local photographers to submit a photo series under one of seven categories. I scrolled down and saw the “Shared Space(s)” category. My head started buzzing with ideas. I messaged Madi straight away.
“I scrolled down and saw the “Shared Space(s)” category. My head started buzzing with ideas.”
A few weeks later, I was in Madi’s house, getting ready for a day out with her and her best friend, Renée. My vision was to capture the gentle back-and-forth between their friendship and the environments which they moved through, from the intimacy of Madi’s bedroom to the energy of the city.
I was in work when the email came through to tell me that not only was I a finalist, but they wanted to use my image as the marketing lead for the exhibition. I had a huge rush of adrenaline and was filled with excitement. As someone new to photography, it felt really reassuring that people with much more experience than myself had resonated with my photos in some way. It’s really inspired me to keep going and to pursue my creative passions. The opening night itself was such a proud moment for me. It was amazing to meet the other finalists and to see their amazing work in the flesh. I came back to the gallery again a few weeks later and it felt completely surreal to see members of the public interacting with my work.
“With the money from the prize, I’ve been able to buy myself a new camera. This will allow me much more creative freedom and the chance to start experimenting with my style. I have an idea for a photo series I’d like to shoot this year.”
With the money from the prize, I’ve been able to buy myself a new camera (a Sony a7iii) which is amazing, as I’d mainly been borrowing my friend’s camera (thanks Will!). This will allow me much more creative freedom and hopefully the chance to gain technical experience and to start experimenting with my style. I’m super grateful to the Open Eye Gallery for making this possible. I have an idea for a photo series I’d like to shoot this year and I’d really love to make a photobook too. I’m also hoping to assist some photographers to gain more experience.